World of fantasy

i tried to hide my feelings but it turned into a nuisance, I tried to conceal my happiness but ended up crying inside, I tried to put on a brave face but it turned out I was shaking inside, I tried to shout but ended up losing words in my mouth,I tried to walk but ended up in the middle of nowhere,I tried to love but it ended up in a cruel reality of never going back to it again, whether I tried to kill the feeling or not it ended but winded inside me, once living in a fantasy ended up being in a nightmare created myself. I tried and tried but as they all say everything has a limit. I once claimed something that was mine but it never was ment for me. Reaching something so far away ended up falling down. Whenever things fall down picking it up it never ends up being same. The moon once made me smile,I tried to ignore it, the sun once gave me light now I walk in dark, I once loved flowers but now I found pleasure in decaying petals, I once loved colours but now I live in grey and black.