World of fantasy

I'm sorry that I lied,I'm sorry that I had to fall in love, I'm sorry that a play for me turned into a reality, I'm sorry that when ever I see you my guilt makes me burst into tears, I can't control this feeling I have for you, knowing that my heart might explode yet I refuse to see you, knowing that it might turn me crazy yet I refuse to hear your voice, knowing that you're smile appears in my dream when I close my eyes makes me run to you, but I refuse, maybe if I stay away from you I would forget of you,maybe if I stop myself from thinking of you I might forget the feeling I had, maybe if I leave you can I be myself, but I still refuse to face you.

If I could I would turn Into the wind and blow on your face everyday, if I could I would make your smile be permanent, if I could I would make you into my melody,if I could I would keep you away from every harm,if I could I would turn myself into your dreams and live with you forever,if I could I would bring butterflies for you to see everyday, if I could I would make you mine in every life, if I could I would be your song in the rain and sun,only if I could, if I could I would exchange my happiness with your pain,if i could I would be your eyes in the dark, if I could i would be your heart forever.

Be my happy ending. Like a fairytale where the princess meets the prince. Be my melody so I could listen to your voice on repeat. Be my sunshine and light my world, be my flower so that I could see the butterflies in your eyes, be with me holding my hand until day break and the moon comes out. Be my star and shine upon the sky. Be my happiness so that my sadness melts away. Your presence makes my life complete. Your my fairytale and my happy ever after. Your the prince in my fairytale. Your mystery to every happiness. Your my everything that I wish for. Be my happy ending.

I'm sorry for lying I'm sorry for hurting you. Let me go now for I have done sins that can never be forgotten. Your memories will stay  With me forever as I sink deeper being tangled with all the problems I've caused now I must face it and await for the consequences to come.im sorry for the times I said I didn't need you in my life,that was the not true at all I always needed you but didn't want you to have my dark past Harbour your beautiful future ahead. For you I must let go,for you and your future I must distory myself. It's the only way. Please be happy the things we did cannot be forgotten but move on for me. Your life is more important than mine. I can no longer hold onto you. I'll remember your smile and I'll remember you laugh, those happiness and warmth I got from you.thank you for everything.my time is up.if there is another life I wish to meet you again as an ordinary person.for you my love will never die....

Looking down like there were another me through waters,thinking was she better or was she sad like me.why is her eyes full of tears why is she sad. Was there an answer no it was not. I'll keep looking at my reflection knowing that it would make no change but I'll keep looking. Oh is that how I look or am I not as others say iam, what if there are another dimension beneath my reflection. Does it make sense to be so imaginative, or am I too stupid for that. People say reflection cannot lie than why do I feel sad when  I look at myself. Does it hurt to be me, I always ask myself. Are you happy what you are now. I cannot reply myself. Being me was the only thing I ever knew, tried so many times to change myself but little did I know I'll lose myself in the process. So now my reflection is just another me another person lying beneath the dimension of my reflection.

I was standing on the edge of the mountain waiting for you, days flew like dust,came evening than night,still standing there with no traces of you, now I know that no one will ever love me like you but I'm sure of one thing no one will hurt me like you. I walked thousands of miles to search for you, I got tortured by thousands times yet I stood against it to find you, I walked on rocks,hot sand,cold ice just to see you, I got beaten by thousands of people,just to get the information of you, I crossed rivers and lakes in search of you,my legs got numbed but I never lost hope just for you, starved for days and nights,still looking for you, my head got hit against the wall blood flowed like water,yet I kept thinking it's worth it because it's for you, when I finally saw you without someone else plotting against me, the feeling I had was crushed by a thousand rocks,bit by bit it shattered into pieces. The promise we made was just a show for you. I never thought that a day might...

Why must you leave me, why must you love me but leave me in the end, why must you bring tears to my eyes,  why must you say words that pierce me like thousands of swords, why must you leave me in the middle of nowhere,why is it me being hurt in the end, why is it you being cold towards me, why am I so stupid to let you in,why did you promise when you couldn't even complete, why must you pretend to love than using me like a toy,why have you gave me a scar that I'll never leave my heart, why must I cry, why did you take me to places that gave me hope, why did you smile if it was fake, why did you want to hold me if I was disgusting in your eyes,why must you be cruel, why is so painful to forget,why can never have a any ending it will always be why for me,forever.