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A new year and my search continues


Another new year and here I'm looking outside the balcony, my window near the bed or outside the door. Stars appeared like before, I still search for the one in my dream yet it's ongoing and tiring but I still try. Thinking myself every day. Asking myself I might find him but not a single clue on how much I have found, just some scattered pieces of my dreams that's been long fragmented and half lost what I left is bits of it in my imagination.
Looking around or down the balcony seeing smiling faces makes my heart warm but it's still feels empty. Where or who should I watch the fireworks with. Music is all I have imagination is all I can think of and be whatever I feel like to be in my Dreamland. Don't remember the face nor the height just some details insights. Is he real or not wheather he's just my imagination or not I'll still look for you. Should I end my search or go on, everything has it's limits so do I yet I'm still confused if I'm tired of searching or not. Should I just wait until I get tired maybe disaapointed. From his necklace to his daughter and her necklace what should I search with can't even recognize what it looked like. I guess he's just a imagination that turned into a dream. Well that's another story to tell later I'll end this with a new year wish and lots of love hope that whoever is hoping to find their soulmate have success and those who lost hope don't worry I'm also in that phase. That is all for now ☺️

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