World of fantasy

Is it just me being lost in thought, mind wondering things of different sorts. Someone asked me what is love, how can I tell when mine was nothing but a short puppy love. Some say you will get butterflies, some say you will be thinking about him. I still couldn't believe how people fall in love. I get attached that it feels like I had feelings but it was not. I guess attachment is worse then falling in love. The year is about to end none came but they all went. If a confession is what I'm waiting for I guess I'd be making another incomplete fairy tale with no happy ending. Not every relationship ends with a happiness not all love comes without hatred. It's just me I guess that doesn't know what love is, if someone is willing to teach me what love is and how it feels by committing a lifetime promise. For now I'll still wait for love to come and get me, not going anywhere I'll wait in my own dream..

She set on top of the railing, and watched the city as the sun sets and the lights get on. She thought what would people down there be thinking about. Some might be happy, some might be sad, some might be having food some might just be thinking about food. Everyone out there have goals in life to achieve. But what's mine. At times being aimless makes me feel like I'm good for nothing she thought. It's life I guess, she spotted a young couple passing by on the road side, hah look at them and look at me she thought. Life taught me many lessons this year, from friends to families and strangers as well. She said to herself I've lost too much and gained less how do I even balance this. I unknowingly might have disappointed some people as well but I just don't know what else I can do she told herself. As everyone says everything heals as time goes by but they don't know it lives an invisible scar that appears without you realising. As the night chills started to get h

You once came into my life like an angel and filled my heart with love. You were my pride of joy and happiness. After losing you I felt like my life got empty. A void with no door or room. My colourful life turned black. I decided to get another angle but God gave me no chance it was gone away from me once again. And my life was once again stopped to where I was before. It was once again a void that I tried to avoid. Never thought that once again your memories would flood back to me once again. And again my tears fell down, my emotions I tried to so hard to hide came out my heart felt like it's making me choke. Words got lost and I find myself alone. I'm walking with no light in my hand in a dark area thinking to find my light back once again. And again my knees gave up the silent echo told me turn back there is no way out. I said I need to find them. Where has my light gone to, find it back I screamed, and once again it was silent like a void without an echo.