World of fantasy

Always thought being alone is good, yeah it is but sometimes you feel like wouldn't it be better to have someone walk with you. They said a soulmate takes time, I know but for how long. They said there's someone special waiting for you, yeah but where and for how long. They said love is this and that, but for me I thought I had my first love but it wasn't so tell me what real love is. They said always be patient yeah I was but for how long. I've been telling myself that there's always someone who's watching me when I'm not looking but when I look back there is no one. They said music heals your soul, it did but at some point the soul will become immune to music. They said laugh a little it will be alright, I did but the tears fell of my eyes and the lips got tired. They said share it with someone, I did but at some point I don't even know what to tell anymore. They said there's always hope, I feel like even if there is hope it's getting less bit ...

I'll drink away my pain and sorrow, under the peace blossom. Remembering how you stabbed me when I let my guard down, I followed you blindly and you took advantage of my love and slapped me in the face with your betrayal. The one who loved me warned about you saying don't get too far where there's no road of return, I told him as long as I make my road I won't be lost. There's a poem that says love those who loves you and hate those who tries to devour you. The sweetness in my wine makes me forget my own self, tipsy as I'm yet nothing heals a broken heart. Join me on oh my long gone beloved we shall drink till it's dawn. Eyes are nothing more then a river and it fills my cup but not my heart. Petals fall as the wind blew singing the once heart that heard your sorrow. Come again you shall not find the one they loved come again when the peace blooms. I filled my cup once again singing the song of the lost lovers. The rivers are flowing yet I'm still here u...

.......hmm where do I start..... what don't look at me like that!I know I know what you are thinking how can I a simple girl fall in love with a guy like that we'll for now let me tell you a secret. ....oh sorry I was lost in his golden eyes for a while. So where was I oh right! The secret!. As you know my whole life I was looking for a hero like in the fairy tales but oh boy hahahaha( she's gone nuts, narrator). Ahem! ! My bad sorry about that. One evening i was passing by and stumbled upon a bookshop (narrator: lies she is a bookholic) I'm telling or you are! Well not stumbled upon I came across it when I was walking by the poster said all books was half price so I ran inside to buy. But that's not it ( narrator: ended up buying half the books there) seriously who is paying you for that. Nevertheless it was worth buying. But I didn't realize the weather changed so quickly while I was inside, coming out of the shop the rain got heavier so I started to run towar...

i tried to hide my feelings but it turned into a nuisance, I tried to conceal my happiness but ended up crying inside, I tried to put on a brave face but it turned out I was shaking inside, I tried to shout but ended up losing words in my mouth,I tried to walk but ended up in the middle of nowhere,I tried to love but it ended up in a cruel reality of never going back to it again, whether I tried to kill the feeling or not it ended but winded inside me, once living in a fantasy ended up being in a nightmare created myself. I tried and tried but as they all say everything has a limit. I once claimed something that was mine but it never was ment for me. Reaching something so far away ended up falling down. Whenever things fall down picking it up it never ends up being same. The moon once made me smile,I tried to ignore it, the sun once gave me light now I walk in dark, I once loved flowers but now I found pleasure in decaying petals, I once loved colours but now I live in grey and black. ...

Waking up every morning, drawing the curtains, suns ray touching your face with a gust of cool breeze as you open the windows, the smell of nature,the view of mountain,that shaking of trees and the chripping of birds,, that shiny, sparkling ocean, with a radio playing on background,and a cup of coffee in your hand , thinking about the past and future. in the evening seeing the sun set near the mountains and it gets colder as the night falls. Sitting near the fire warming up yourself reading a book while admiring the night view near mountains, if lucky enough you can see fireflies and the moon accompanied by dazzling stars. For shopping going by a near by village with full of people,small stalls. Every season the village celebrate at night, dancing around the fireplace singing the song of their loved ones with laughter and joy,this is a wonder place of a lifetime.

Sitting in the corner of the bed, shutting off yourself from the world listening to music and looking outside. feeling empty like all I have is myself alone keeping myself busy with music and lost in all thoughts. Asking myself did I do anything wrong in my previous life that I'm being alone like this. People see me smile and laugh but they don't see that I'm half broken inside. Being surrounded by people only make you feel like being alone is better just yourself and your imagination. sitting in a crowded place only make me feel like an outcast. The feeling inside telling me you don't belong here run away from them. but I kept ignoring it. Telling myself it's ok it's only for a while endure it, it's going to be alright. I smile as if I feel nothing is wrong with me. But not sure for how long, every step I take makes me think twice and guilty. I once asked myself am I doing the right thing. No reply came it's ok it's ok don't have to worry about ...

Did you ever know after being alone just by yourself and then looking at other couples thinking about your own self that will I ever find someone. Then suddenly an unexpected turn occurred took you off your feet and changed the way you think,more like stirring himself into my life with everything that he does. People say age does not matter! Well I guess at some point it's true crazy but true. A long distance relationship makes a person look like they are closer well actually close one doesn't last longer but some say having a long distance makes two people close to eachother. whatever you do just can't stop wondering about him. Early morning greetings and good night message just makes your day. Sharing things like pictures of places you've been or getting mad because he refuses to take meds but emotional blackmail makes it work. Taking care from so far away feels like a fairy tail adventure. It's like a dream of never ending happiness but what makes me sad is when ...